tv show that got his freak on:
house MD
what he thinks of grey's anatomy:
cheeeesy...bosan.
fav mcD's meal:
fillet o'fish
song he always sings out of tune in car:
back 2 good - matchbox 20
movie that he literally remembers all d lines:
pulp fiction
his so-called alter ego:
billy bob thornton
fav pitstop:
kedai jambu kakak "ratu kebaye" dekat tapah
his cooking style:
c.a.m.p.a.k!
what he did on my 22nd birthday:
sing happy birthday totally out of tune! & leave it in my voicemail
his fantasy girlfriend:
gwen stefani - yodelay yodelay yodelay yayyy!
his belief:
dettol can cure all your skin issues
he eats:
everything, even the almost basi one - he just didn't notice it
he says no to:
no smoking
his dress code:
anything smart up ther + selipa jamban of whatever version down there
what he'll do to a glass of horlicks:
pour it into your mother's potted plant!
what he gave to me on my 4th semester?
a letter
what he wrote there?
he said he's very sorry that he were not there like anyone like him would and should have
i dunno..
if he knows, he'll know
**
he - that i know
yes, i am offended.
oh, it's going to turn 8th next week.
yesterday my husband ask if i'm interested to join bukak puase sponsored by his colleague - buat kat hotel - so i answered why not - it's on our monthyversary anyway - something to be celebrated lah kan (yes, i am cheap. we don't celebrate the monthyversary)
it's going to be the 8th month that i share my whole daily xtvts with - gosok gigi, breakfast, shop for groceries, lepak tepi pantai, sleep, movies, demam, sakit..evry single thing, you name it. & another 4 months we are going to meet that same path that we chose to travel in, yes, in another 4 months i can proudly say that i have been married to him for a year now - and that's when i can legally use the word annyversary (monthy sounds cuter tho..)
and it's going to turn 8th month nextweek,
and i have face with uncounted number of the same question in god-knows multiple version:
dah ade isi ke?
bile nak dapat baby?
u nampak berisi, ade ape-ape ke?
eh, lame tak borak, ade cerite gembire?
bile lagi turn you?
i rase u pregnant kot, banyak makan semacam je ni
kawan kite yang tu dah, yang ni dah, kau bile lagi?
cepat2 ok, anak aku nak kawan
alah sian, anak jiran yang u letak jadi wallpaper, bile nak letak gambar anak sendiri?
& it goes on,
n i believe it will go on forever, until the moment that there is actually a living soul inside my tummy.
i just had a conversation about this with my sister,
i mean, about people asking questions just for the purpose to make you feel small and offended, and for them to feel superior and have a f***ing right to give remarks or directions in how you should lead your life.
i was married at 24 and people don't get the chance to hush-hush asking when will i get married.
but suprisingly, even then, people give me this:-
awalnye kahwin! eh u dah sedia ke ni?
f*** you people.
you selfish *****
you give me that remarks while at the same time turn your head around and asking my 30 year old sister "bile lagi kakak nye ni nak kahwin? adik 2 orang dah kahwin dah.."
just because you have a husband and an endless number of children doesn't mean that people who doesn't is damn f***ing miserable.
do you get my message here?
my mother tought us about ikhlas.
ikhlas dalam bersahabat,
ikhlas dalam mengambil berat.
she don't teach us the opposite.
so let me tell you now.
maybe the reason why it has been a long time since i give a damn about you is because you have offended me - in a way that i never thought you will.
jodoh, ajal, rezqi are things that are out of our control.
feel humble and think back, people..
if you can ask me bile nak dapat anak,
can i pleassssssssse ask you back bile you nak mati?
.
nil
i kissed her hand - "mak, maaf kan saye"
i kissed her face, and a quick hug, buried my face in her neck
i looked into her eyes - i was sobing hard - saw couple of tears flowing from her eyes
she wiped off my tears, and she nodded - and i got up and left
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.
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dat was our last encounter.
had i know about it - i will do everything differently
but i don't
saye rindu mak. sangat.