baby steps in one big jungle

2011-09-12T20:26:00.000+08:00

papa, i love u, regardless.

no one really knows what we've been going thru.
i am going to stick with u.

Si

2011-07-19T16:05:00.000+08:00

si kenit.

si chebol.

si king-king!

si chubbyrin.

semua adelah die.

when u sleep, i wish u would wake up, and when u wake up, i really really really wish u would just go back to sleep - hehe, ibu being tak aci :p

saye seorang ibu

2011-06-11T21:47:00.002+08:00

25 years, 10 months, 2 days - a daughter, a wife, a sister, a mother.

all that i am now =)

syurga di mana?

2011-05-09T23:29:00.000+08:00

mase kecik mase tengah urut tapak kaki mak, mak cakap "tahu tak syurga tu di bawah tapak kaki ibu?"
aku gelak. ok. i was 6. i can't read between the lines. everything is literal. so bile jenguk tapak kaki mak and all i can see is tapak kaki - otak aku berhenti di situ sahaje. takde syurge bawah tapak kaki ibu.

bile masuk sekolah dah pandai sikit - ustazah cerite kenape dikatekan syurga tu tempatnye bawah tapak kaki ibu - bahawasenye berkat & redha seorang ibu terhadap kehidupan kamu akan membawa ke berkat Tuhan mu dan syurge adalah balasan yang telah dijanjikan ke atas kamu.

ingat lagi ape yang mak suke cakap - ingat, doa ibu tu takde tapis nye. straight pergi dekat Allah. jgn risau, mak sentiase doakan kamu.

sebab tu kadang2 study lebih kurang je tapi dapat result ok kot? huhu. agaknyele..

mak cerite lagi, mase mak sekolah dulu, bangun pagi pergi angkat air penuhkan tempayan, lepas tu pergi menoreh. sebelum pergi sekolah salam atok & nenek, n cium tapak kaki nenek. everyday.

tapi mak tak ajar kami salam gitu, mak ajar salam cium tangan lepas tu cium pipi kanan, pipi kiri, n dahi, mak & ayah.
most of my friends zaman sekolah asrama dulu startled seeing how i greet my parents, teringat lagi one of the girls said, aku tak pernah cium ayah aku, salam cium tangan je lah. cium pipi tak pernah pon. aku, startled dengan komen die, for i thot semua anak2 di dunia ni greet parents mereke seperti yang kami adik beradik buat.

& sampai sekarang we still greet ayah the way we've been tought how.

in my 22 years of living i never kissed my mom's foot. but that day when she lies there, still, not moving, not living, i kissed her foot - it was freezing cold, n hard, and i kissed it. twice. for all i know is i don't want to missed that chance. i never did it when she was alive, so i don't want to lose it to the very last. i kissed my mom's foot - and that moment i understand why the saying "syurga di bawah tapak kaki ibu". tempat yang terindah yang dijanjikan Tuhan untuk hambanya dilambangkan ditempat yang terendah di tubuh manusia - tapi di tubuh manusia yang mulia di sisiNya - seorang ibu.

mak pernah cakap lagi - kahwin nanti dalam keadaan macam mane sekalipun taat kamu berpindah ke suami kamu - redha Allah dah bergantung ke redha suami - kamu wajib mentaati suami lebih dari kamu mentaati mak dengan ayah. syurga di bawah tapak kaki die nanti.

i hate to hear that - for i can't think that there'll come a day that one man will take away the first priority box i've set for my parents.
but funnily that day came and i am willingly embraced it.

but mak was not there to witness it. or else my wedding day will be one crying-my-eyes-out-and-blotched-all-the-eyeliner-mascara-whatsoever day.

bile diingat balik, bersyukur mak dah pesan awal2 - walau mase tu tengah matrix lagi - cerite kahwin tu still dekat langit hijau lagi- tapi mak dah pesan dekat kami - syurga kamu nanti berpindah ke tapak kaki suami - taat suami - jadi isteri yang menggembirekan hati - pandai jaga maruah diri - jual nama baik suami & famili. and she has set a life example for us - how she walks the talks - that's priceless.

i had lost my heaven but last years i get it back - kata2 mak remains - tho it is so damn hard to embrace sometimes but the flashes of her words bring me back to the ground again.

i know now where's my heaven.

it is right next to me..

suck it list

2011-03-13T21:55:00.000+08:00

pizza is doable - suck it pizzahut!

roti is doable - suck it all-d-bakery-in-m'sia!

cendol is doable - suck it mamak!

next doable item: chicken peri - peri. jaga - jaga cik salmah!

hehe

ouh, it's her birthday!

2011-03-04T00:18:00.001+08:00

post ini lambat. 23 years ago she already turned 1 day by this time.
akak & ayah kid around on her birth time. if you were born sharp at 0000 hours, technically, you don't have a specific birth day, since 0000 is at the border - transition between yesterday and today. mcm ats pagar - you don't belong to either side.
she just laughed dat silly joke away.
ouh how we grew up together - kick around, keeping secrets, telling stories, sharing dreams.
"kak, kalau dah besar nanti dah ade duit, kau nak beli ape?"
aku cakap aku nak beli rumah, nak beli kerete..
bile tanye die, die jawab
"aku nak beli katil, nak tidor atas katil, sebab aku tak pernah ade katil sendiri"
& i laugh on dat thot, i think it's pretty funny when the 1st thing crosses her mind with cash in hands is katil.
glimpse of innocence.
but i did not laugh at dat day, when she brought one home. at her tender age of 22, and not working yet. she got a katil of her own.big one i would say, with nice plumpy mattress that i envy so much.
i did not laugh, i smile, and i asked her if she still remembers, and she just smile back.
it's her birthday yesterday - ong date chinese would say [3388], & she has bring ong to us thru out the way.

so 4u - it's just a number, it does not represent your wisdom, you yourself represent yourself.
go reach dat cloud - d ladder is ther eventho u may not see it, it's ther. just get a firm hold, & climb you!

p/s: k'lg, i did not make a special birthday post 4u last time. will pay it forward. long live insyAllah :)

the difference between make just enough and doesn't make it at all - i don't beg you for living

2011-02-18T06:02:00.003+08:00

whenever i tell you one thing about my current life that seems like a taboo to most people - i am not reaching out for your sympathy, i am simply being honest.

whenever i just smile at your insensitive remarks or labelling - i am not being helpless, i am restraining myself from going to that dark place again where i just bluntly lose my patience.

whenever i change the topic every time you ask me that same question - i am not running away, it's just that you are not the person that i wanted to share.

and when i am not sharing it with you - it doesn't mean that i am bottling the feelings inside, it's not that i am crying my life in my heart - it's just that, i don't feel the sense of caring coming from you, what i feel is just the attention to make me feel less of my life.

and when you dare use the word "care" to justify,
deep down i am giving you that finger that seldomly rise among all the fingers of the hand on my right.

until the day that i am begging you for life,
please make it very clear that i am currently doing fine.

if you say i am in the state of denial,
i think you are just trying hard to make you feel better with the state you are in right now by making me feel small and little and very damn minimal.

and if you think i am being too harsh with my selection of words,
believe me yours to me is just as much harsh as this, i am just paying it forward.

and don't you assume the other people too own credit cards like you do and make your pocket burn,
i never own one and so is my husband.

fin-

crouching tiger hidden dragon

2011-02-06T21:47:00.001+08:00

yes.

i got one of both now inside my tummy.

martial art gone crazy.

haiyakk!

future note for Ummar: papa is super happy! :)

sakit gigi itu sakit

2011-01-10T22:26:00.000+08:00

sakit.

king.of.anything

2010-12-04T08:06:00.000+08:00

if diz song was on when i was 11,
i wuld dedic8 it to my akak,
for she is my living hell thru out my pre-teen era - hehe

if diz song was on in 2009 - in d prep for my marriage,
i wuld dedic8 it to my kaklang,
for d stupid fight dat we had - and for how cruel she'd been to me (or so i thot) - hehe

but diz song was just on - & i have no 1 specific to dedic8 it to now,
becuz i'd turned on a new leaf - openly giv a damn care about wut evry1 think - or d opposite.

but i sure think dat if she knows, adik wuld dedic8 it to me,
for i am her living hell from then, till now, & forever (i much believe) - hehe

king - of - anything

keep drinking coffee stare me down across d table - while i look outside

so many things i'd say if only i were able

but i just keep quiet & count d cars dat passed by

u got opinions, man

we're all entitled to 'em - but i never asked

so let me thank u 4 ur time & try not to waste any more of mine

get out of here fast

i hate to break it to u babe - but i'm not drowning

ther's no 1 here to save

so who cares if u disagree?

you are not me

who made u king of anything?

so u dare tell me who to be

who'd die?

& made u king of anything

sara bareilles

looking back,
what i remember is,
when i ask akak "kenape kau sebok (hal aku)?"
she said "sbb aku akak kau"

& when i refuse to apologize for starting a fight with kaklang,
she pulled me towards her n said "kaklang syg kau"

& i beliv i gave d same reason to adik,
eventho she resent it, here's a message 4u adik:

u hardly can do anything about it,
sbb aku KAKAK kau.

haha

& diz sisterhood - i pray hard dat ther wont be anything - or anyone - tearing it down

i love u guys - so so much

p/s: u r all invited to join d celebration of our annyversary nxt weeks - jgn assume ape2 yg hebat - aku nak belanje maqan2 aje :p

NMAR is RBIE

2010-10-12T20:26:00.000+08:00

oh.
action, speaks louder than words.
sile

siape yang tak suke raye?

2010-09-10T15:31:00.001+08:00

raye mestilah best..

p/s:
maybe wakjem just lurrrrrrve raye toooo much - he offered his "love" to the camera

;)

he - that i know

2010-09-08T21:19:00.001+08:00

tv show that got his freak on:
house MD

what he thinks of grey's anatomy:
cheeeesy...bosan.

fav mcD's meal:
fillet o'fish

song he always sings out of tune in car:
back 2 good - matchbox 20

movie that he literally remembers all d lines:
pulp fiction

his so-called alter ego:
billy bob thornton

fav pitstop:
kedai jambu kakak "ratu kebaye" dekat tapah

his cooking style:
c.a.m.p.a.k!

what he did on my 22nd birthday:
sing happy birthday totally out of tune! & leave it in my voicemail

his fantasy girlfriend:
gwen stefani - yodelay yodelay yodelay yayyy!

his belief:
dettol can cure all your skin issues

he eats:
everything, even the almost basi one - he just didn't notice it

he says no to:
no smoking

his dress code:
anything smart up ther + selipa jamban of whatever version down there

what he'll do to a glass of horlicks:
pour it into your mother's potted plant!

what he gave to me on my 4th semester?
a letter

what he wrote there?
he said he's very sorry that he were not there like anyone like him would and should have

i dunno..

if he knows, he'll know

**

apabila telur itu berharga 100 billion

2010-08-27T02:38:00.002+08:00

the first few months duduk same dengan husband dekat sini kami akan breakfast every single day - mase tu bangun pagi2 & prepare foods (read: foods. real foods. foods yg perlu dimasak ok..i can't believe it myself) & hari2 kami akan menapau ke ofis. The colleague dropping their jaw when i said i cook before coming to work - maybe it's because of the distance that they hardly believe i'd be able to do that. tapi it doesn't last long pon..masuk 2nd month dah slow...& continues with the reduced momentum and suddenly it just stops. no more breakfast - no more tapau.

paling koman kalau tak sempat nak masak apa2 we'll just be having telor separoh masak - 2 bijik untuk saye, 2 bijik untuk die. top with pepper..& sometimes dunk in dgn black pepper sauce. del.ici.ous . 1 papan telor will last for 5 working days - 2 months practice - so i believe that habit is one of the many reasons how i gain that double digit increment of my total body mass. cannot resist babe..

nway,
that day i browsed thru my sister's blog and stumble upon an old post -
"calling for the return of gold dinar as money" -
and ternampak gambar yang pernah tengok dulu - and still remember my reaction on the first time i saw it (klik sini)

it costs 100 billion to get 3 eggs in zimbabwe - ridiculous right?

but that's exactly what happen in zimbabwe - 5 sextillion % of inflation - so $100b almost equivalent to RM 0.60.

truth hurts.

i am new to this thing - in fact i'm still learning - regarding the biggest culprit invention that we call money - paper money - paper that's been assigned a specific value on it - that we have been made believe that they means a lot to us - but underneath all the inks - they are just a damn piece of paper.

so if it's $100b for 3 eggs in zimbabwe, 1 papan of 30 bijik telor would be 100b x 10 = $1T.
lord!

if that figure is in RM, i would buy the company that i work in & swaying my trillion *** into the President's office.

but it's not. truth hurts. again.

if we look back in history - it was after the Civil War that the US introduced their first fiat money called Greenbacks as a tool to cover the war's cost - but Greenbacks were backed by gold value, of which after almost 20 years of its use, the US manage to reimburse the Greenbacks into gold resulting in domestic price stability & virtually, no inflation.

but it didn't last long.

WWI comes into the picture - US needs financial aids for the war - and this marks the beginning of the uncontrol printing of paper money - and they were no longer backed by gold value - because there wasn't enough gold stock to support the printed paper money.

& it continues - inflation hikes - and to make it worse - Nixon guy ended the international gold standard - and during that time no currencies were backed by gold value - & it just goes downhill from there..
(read more)

same goes with what happen in zimbabwe - & as a result - 3 bijik telor harge nye 100 billion dollar - paper money melayang2 dalam negare diorang - takde sape kesah - sebab dah takde value.

anyway,
thanks to wakjem that he's the initiator of this (i consider as) BiG revelation that i would just care less before i knew it.

the downside of paper money & the fitrah of gold & silver as currency.

i am having a full faith in this hadeeth:
that the Prophet Muhammad S.A.W said that there will come a day where nothing will be of benefits to you - so keep gold and silver

truth hurts.
but not unless you do something about it.

me: 5 dinar and counting... (insyAllah)

*****

yes, i am offended.

2010-08-21T13:27:00.004+08:00

oh, it's going to turn 8th next week.

yesterday my husband ask if i'm interested to join bukak puase sponsored by his colleague - buat kat hotel - so i answered why not - it's on our monthyversary anyway - something to be celebrated lah kan (yes, i am cheap. we don't celebrate the monthyversary)

it's going to be the 8th month that i share my whole daily xtvts with - gosok gigi, breakfast, shop for groceries, lepak tepi pantai, sleep, movies, demam, sakit..evry single thing, you name it. & another 4 months we are going to meet that same path that we chose to travel in, yes, in another 4 months i can proudly say that i have been married to him for a year now - and that's when i can legally use the word annyversary (monthy sounds cuter tho..)

and it's going to turn 8th month nextweek,
and i have face with uncounted number of the same question in god-knows multiple version:

dah ade isi ke?
bile nak dapat baby?
u nampak berisi, ade ape-ape ke?
eh, lame tak borak, ade cerite gembire?
bile lagi turn you?
i rase u pregnant kot, banyak makan semacam je ni
kawan kite yang tu dah, yang ni dah, kau bile lagi?
cepat2 ok, anak aku nak kawan
alah sian, anak jiran yang u letak jadi wallpaper, bile nak letak gambar anak sendiri?

& it goes on,
n i believe it will go on forever, until the moment that there is actually a living soul inside my tummy.

i just had a conversation about this with my sister,
i mean, about people asking questions just for the purpose to make you feel small and offended, and for them to feel superior and have a f***ing right to give remarks or directions in how you should lead your life.

i was married at 24 and people don't get the chance to hush-hush asking when will i get married.
but suprisingly, even then, people give me this:-

awalnye kahwin! eh u dah sedia ke ni?

f*** you people.
you selfish *****
you give me that remarks while at the same time turn your head around and asking my 30 year old sister "bile lagi kakak nye ni nak kahwin? adik 2 orang dah kahwin dah.."

just because you have a husband and an endless number of children doesn't mean that people who doesn't is damn f***ing miserable.

do you get my message here?

my mother tought us about ikhlas.

ikhlas dalam bersahabat,
ikhlas dalam mengambil berat.

she don't teach us the opposite.

so let me tell you now.
maybe the reason why it has been a long time since i give a damn about you is because you have offended me - in a way that i never thought you will.

jodoh, ajal, rezqi are things that are out of our control.

feel humble and think back, people..

if you can ask me bile nak dapat anak,

can i pleassssssssse ask you back bile you nak mati?

.

keep your feet on the ground while your head's in the cloud

2010-08-20T11:43:00.012+08:00

if it's not real you can't hold it in your hands
you can't feel it with your heart
& i won't believe it
but if it's true
you can see it with your eyes
oh, even when in the dark
& that's where i want to be - boring by boring brick

p/s: dik, this is my version of the pix. no german saying wutsoev.. ;)

i-not-complaining

2010-07-10T12:05:00.002+08:00

set 1: jumaat + sabtu

set 2: sabtu + ahad

subset: sabtu

tapi kalau sabtu tu set 2 kene keje, tinggallah set 1 sorang sorang

N I R

2010-07-02T07:31:00.005+08:00

Nurul Iman Rusli - siapa dia bagi saye:

1 akak

2 sahabat

3 seteru dalam selimut

4 penyelamat

5 transport

6 banker/funder

7 bahu - untuk saye menangius (menangis + keluar hingus)

8 bahan kacau + sakat -

ye puan2, mule2 kite sediakan semua bahan yg nak dimasak dan susun chantek2 ye..

9 b*tch*ng buddy -

&*^&%^$#&@^&@*#((@#)(@

10 akal untuk pendapat -

ahza, akak rase matching betul kau pakai baju hijau dengan seluar oren tu

11 harapan terbaik untuk dapat maqan asam pedas!

12 book of cook -

oh yeah...copy paste dari akak tapi aku dapat credit!

13 my private gold & dinar agent -

tapi suke tulis receipt last minit!

14 kawan shopping -

oh, i'm sorry bout that rm66 exchange unlimited - won't rasuk u lagi lps ni

15 stinkiest timing bomb -

she knows what i mean..

16 tudung supplier -

tudung u, tudung i; tudung i, tudung i

17 my 2nd closet -

kak, nak pinjam shirt ni..

18 pembebel -

ahza, jhfnuidhvdkhvbfjkoilkjfgnujkvnfdiukjomidvdlkjmoivlk. faham tak?

19 bibik -

ki3

20 ustazah -

kak, ingat tak stori "adik ustazah" yg i cerite dekat u..? :P

21 mak :)

with reference to the previous post,

she is of the ductile type.

she knows better how to handle the stress, and how to release it well..without hurting anyone

tho sometimes it'll hurts her more.

i love u Nurul Iman - oh, how you allllwayyyyyyys say that we are stealing your name. pffttt*

happy birthday

bride_go_space & dissappear behind the blue moon

2010-06-30T19:02:00.005+08:00

are you brittle,
or are you ductile?

if you are of the ductile type
you can handle as much stress
so long it doesn't go beyond your limit

but if the stress keeps on coming
you will be broken, baby
broken to the bone
fracture
and your old self, you can never be

but
if you are of the brittle one
you are just like that piece of cookie
chipsmore, munchy's, jacob's, just name it, baby
that's how fragile you are
so it's better for you to be stress-free

in the most perfect world
brittle you may be
wrapped yourself in that egyptian cotton
and live in a pampered life
that i
would very much envy

because thru out my life i am exposed to that much of stress
and i absorb and i absorb
but now i learn to let it free
because i know now that no matter how much stress they try to put on me

i have

akak
kaklang
adik
wakjem
ayah
mama
&
my loveyduvey mR. heilmy

that i can

cry on..
mengadu,
mem b*tch*ng,
lepas geram,
cubit pipi,
gigit telinge,
tupuk bunt*t,
etc.

and forever and
ever and
ever and
ever and
ever and
ever and
ever they will forever still love me.....!

sengal.

KIPC - not Kerteh Integrated Petrochemical Complex

2010-06-29T23:18:00.005+08:00

.....
abes tu amende?

make nye, merujuk balik ke page cik imah, yg cube dimaksudkan di sini adelah Kaum Isteri Pisau Cukur - the abb. sounds more professional rite?

nway..
to heat things up, or to share stories, & maybe we can share thoughts on this - here goes:

Apakah harga kebebasan suami?

scene:
tengahari yang sangat panas,
muke berminyak-minyak,
mengadap nasik berlauk ikan kembong masak cili api,
di bawah atap rumbia.

"jah, suami kau tolong angkat baju tak kat rumah?"

gelak.
"mestilah, kalau aku mintak tolong die tolong je"

"baru2 kawin ni boleh lah.."

hurm..
"apesal tanye?"

"aku tak payah angkat baju kau tau. kerje rumah hape pon tak payah buat"

wahhhh....
"best betul? wife ok ke?"

"ok lah. aku bayar kebebasan aku dari buat kerje rumah"

wow!
"bayar? amende?"

gelak.
"gaji tiap2 bulan 100% handover"

"serius?
abestu, belanje sendiri? makan, minyak..?"

gelak lagi kuat.
"cume tu je lah, hari2 mintak duit belanje.
yang...nak mintak duit belanje hari ni"

tepuk dahi & gelak tersangkut2.
"serius?"
"sanggup?"

"sanggup. asalkan aku tak payah angkat baju,
tak payah tukar lampin anak,
tak payah buat susu anak..bla bla..
aku ade kebebasan aku"

wow.
hurm.
ok.

"aku,
aku lagi rele tak dapat nafkah $$ dari suami daripada buat kerje rumah sorang2 dari pintu pagar rumah kat depan tu sampai pintu belakang. itu tahap merase diri dikahwini utk jadi bibik - iron baju, cuci toilet, vacuum rumah semua aku buat sorg, memang orang gaji betul ni"

gelak.

balik, tanye my roomie.

"kalau u ade option sama ada rilex goyang kaki kat rumah tak payah buat ape2 or tolong i buat kerje rumah, mane satu u choos?
tapi syaratnye, kalau u nak rilex, u have to handover all ur gaji to me."

diam.

"i tak kahwin dgn u utk jadikan u org gaji"

"u choos ape?"

"selame ni i tolong u kan by.."

hehe. nasib baik memberi jawapan yg dikehendaki.
thanx rumie ;)

nway.
to conclude this.
frankly, it's my 1st time hearing diz stori - suami yg membayar harge kebebasan diri.
i dunno,
maybe i m toooo katak di bawah tempurung,
but i still believe that marriage is about completing each other,
about splitting everything into two, not doubling.

sebelum kahwin:
laundry seminggu sekali, load 4 kg.

lepas kahwin:
load 8 kg, laundry twice a week.
i basuh + sidai, u tolong angkat ye.

sebelum kahwin:
dinner beli.

lepas kahwin:
ok. i masak, kite maqan same2, u tolong cuci ok?
@
i masak + cuci, u tlg buang sampah.

sebelum kahwin:
bangun + make up bed + buat breakfast

lepas kahwin:
bangun + buat breakfast + "syg, tlg make up the bed ye"

and evrythin else..

so.

sebelum kahwin:
u jump + i jump

lepas kahwin:
u jump
+
i goyang kaki tgk tv

......?

freedom - kebebasan, ataupun lepas tangan?

nil

2010-04-17T00:08:00.004+08:00

i kissed her hand - "mak, maaf kan saye"

i kissed her face, and a quick hug, buried my face in her neck

i looked into her eyes - i was sobing hard - saw couple of tears flowing from her eyes

she wiped off my tears, and she nodded - and i got up and left

..
......
.
.........

dat was our last encounter.

had i know about it - i will do everything differently

but i don't

saye rindu mak. sangat.

m o n t h y v e r s a r y

2010-01-30T15:20:00.005+08:00

it was on 26th, last tuesday.

and both of us got the best gift ever:

and for the gift we thanked Him.

with the gift comes

a test,

a challenge,

a space for wisdom,

and patience.

so help us Allah in guiding us with the gift you gave us.

To family and friends,

you are part of this.

on my nth day of marriage

2010-01-09T07:52:00.004+08:00

on my 1st day (night) of marriage my tru love give to me...

1 supernice stomach massage treatment :)

saye sakit perut + berangin non stop.

en. heilmy terkejut dgn revelation pertame saye: my SUPER (sexy) belahaq.

huhu..now u know encik. mase deting dulu i bg yg minor2 aje..

on my 2nd day of marriage my tru love give to me...

a ride back to bangi :)

agkt brg2 peninggalan semalam (read: baju2 masam) n bukak hadiah!

lepak2 with my sisters n enjoying the moment.

how i wish mak was here...

on my 3rd day of marriage my tru love give to me...

his 1st self-made cup of hot coffee :)

instant je pon...ceitt

on my 4th, 5th and 6th day of marriage my tru love give to me...

a getaway trip to avillion pd ~

nice getaway place,

tiptop hospitality,

but VERY bad desk-service.

check in took 1+ hour!

long q, only 1 counter opened for both check in-check out.

but yet, very nice cook, superb selection of breakfast..

all i can think of thru out my time ther is maqan. nuthin els.

on my 7th day of marriage my tru love give to me...

his approval to balik kmpg melake..yay!

sampai kmpg start round, jaje en. heilmy dkt semua sedare mare. yg encik sorg ni pulak pantang di jaje, die beria2, pumpang pumpang dok bercerite, xtau sbnr nye muke org ni dah toye..hah! sabau je le...

on my 8th day of marriage my tru love give (show) to me...

a good example of suami mithali :)

i fell sick! to the bone.

kepale pusing2, tingtong thp dewe.

ckp dgn en. heilmy,

"boleh tlg picit kan kepale i x"

die terus duduk kat sebelah, letak kepale aku ats lap die, n work on his magic fingers.

i fell asleep for few hours, bile terjage en. heilmy ade dkt sebelah, berjage, aku tanye

"u x baring ke"

die ckp

"s'ok, i tggu u dkt sini, kalau nak ape2".

aku baring lg, 2 minit lps tu die kejut

"meh minum honey, kasi kurang pening".

en. heilmy suap kan honey, aku yg tgh tingtong ni ngange aje, x dpt define ape rase yg msk mulot.

dah kepetangan, en. heilmy kejut,

"cube duduk sekejap, lawan pening"

aku duduk, tingtong stil on, bt few minutes dah ok ..

aku mengadu

"encik..lapar. nak mqn sup"

en. heilmy pon keluar, carik sup utk isteri..

balik rumah dgn sup sebelah tgn, sebelah lagi ade plastik laundry.

"tadi u tdo i pegi hntr baju pegi dobi, msk dlm dryer, x pyh kite sidai dkt lua, nnt jd mcm smlm kene hujan"

-hati tersenyum-

"encik..mlm ni kite blk bangi ye"

"ok.."

-hati tersenyum lagi-

on my 9th day of marriage my tru love give to me (my sister)...

a ride back to gombakk...

adik siap sound "korg dah dkt ni nnt rajin2 tgk aku ye"

ha en. heilmy. nak jadi abg ipar mithali x..? kih3

on my 10th day of marriage my tru love give to me...

his supapawa kederat angkat brg2 dari s/alm ke sg. buloh

terimekaseh encik :)

on my 11th day of marriage my tru love give to me...

his logic!

"encik, nnt kalau u sampai awl tlg rebus kan spagget ye"

"ok"

blk rumah, bkk periuk ats stove....voila!

seperiuk penuh dgn spagget!

die rendam 1 plastik spagget utk 3 org mqn!

"encik, u nk kenduri spaggetti ke ni?"

"u suruh i rebus kan, u x ckp rebus berape bnyk"

"ok encik, lps ni i akn mention precisely brp btg nk rebus ok. so 3 hari 3 mlm lah ngadap spaggetti ni ye"

"takda hal" - ayt die yg plg aku x suke

on my 12th day of marriage my tru love give to me...

a wise piece of advice

"encik, boy basuh kan baju..i plan nak bsh mlm nnt, ni die blk td terus agkt air masuk mesin bilas baju..i malu ni"

"ha, tau kan. si mat boy tu die pantang tgk bnde longgok2 mcm tu, lps ni kalau xnk bsh lg ltk je dlm bilik, nak basuh br bwk p mesin. ok?"

mlm tu, aku nak spin baju, bkk2 mesin tgk baju yg boy basuh td ade lg dlm spin. make aku pon sidai..

eh eh.

ni stokin sape ni?

eh.

ni brief sape pulak ni?

aduss..stokin + brief + tshirt + telekung dlm 1 wash. aduilahh~

on my 13th day of marriage my tru love giv to me...

a very sweet sound of his snore....

mlm tu aku x boleh lelap. en. heilmy dah tdo. kite x puas hati, kejut die.

"encik.."

"humrmm..."

"encik...."

"hurmmmm..."

- start snoring-

kiss 1 time dkt pipi.

nothin.

kiss 1 time dkt dahi.

nothin.

kiss 1 time dkt kepale.

nothin.

kiss 1 time dkt lips.

....

......

...

krrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhzzzzzzzzzz

lagi KUAT snore die.

make saye pon berhenti berharap ade org nak teman berjage..

n mlm tu saye mengigau. en. heilmy terjage, die urut2 dada, suroh istighfar.

huh. naseb baik bgn encik ni. klau x terkapai2 aku carik jln kelua dr mimpi yg mengarut tu.

on my 14th day of marriage my tru love give to me...

a thumbs up on my ikan bakar :)

hehe..yess!! kredit 2 adik.

balik keje, all d way drivin back otak berfikir nk msk ape.

call adik, ngadu.

adik ckp

"kau beli ikan, bakar. letak bwg merah, bwg putih, halia, tumbok tau!

jgn blend, x sdp. lps tu kau grg telor..beli ulam sikit. buat air asam"

huhu.

make setel lah diner aku utk mlm itu, n encik heilmy bg thumbs up!

"tp kan by, klau kite bakar die sekejap je, half d time dari yg kite buat td, bg basah2 je, x kering sgt, mst lg best"

hehe..ye lah. nnt kite buat ye ;)

on my 15th day of marriage my tru love...

leave me alone on the bed.

die pigi kije. make nye stuck lah saye di ats katil ni,

ngadap laptop,

dan terhasil lah post ini.

voila!

s k e p t i c a l

2009-10-13T19:58:00.005+08:00

if i just say hi,
if i don't keep silent in that ride,
if i just look into those eyes,
if i just give a friendly smile,
if i never check the phone,
if i never reply the message,
if i just go and celebrate,
if i just apologize,
if i just try my best to receive,
if i just try my extra best to forgive,

will we still have us?

if only there's an undo button, then i go**amn swear will press it and refresh the page

...

to adjust..or not to adjust. dat's the (tough) question

2009-10-09T03:03:00.006+08:00

*picture said a thousand words*

referring to my previous post item # 7 psl adjust baju nikah,
i hv a funny stori 2 share.
=p

picture above was dated 2 years ago. dah lame but d stori stil fresh in memori.
anywhoo..
kalau zaman sekolah rendah dulu, igt tak dalam kelas bahasa melayu darjah 4,
cikgu suruh buat karangan berdasarkan gmbar yang di beri.
ok.
ini karangan version aku untuk gambar di atas.

Tragedi berdarah malam nikah
ditulis dan diceritakan semula oleh: jah

pada malam pernikahan kaklang (watak utama) nya,
sedang jah (watak lebih utama) menyibuk kan diri membantu mak-mak sedare mereka di dapur,
kak nor, sepupu mereke, anak paklong yunus, merangkap mak andam kaklang memanggil jah dengan nada cemas dari tingkat atas.

"jah, oo jah oi. kau naik atas jap"

maka jah pon segere lah memanjat tangge batu rumah kerajaan
2 tingkat yang telah hampir
5 tahun di diami oleh keluarga mereke,
sambil membetulkan lipatan kain batik lepas nya,
menghampiri bilik utama, tempat datang nya jeritan kak nor tadi.

"ye kak nor. kenape. org tgh menyibuk kat bawah tu"

"ni ha. tolong kak nor ni. tlg bukak kelim baju yang kak nor bwk utk kaklang ni"

"lah. awat nye kak nor?"

dari lirikan mate kiri jah die nampak kaklang berdiri memegang
baju songket bunge tabur kaler merah cina
yang kak nor bawak utk reception die esok sambil menyengih seribu bahase,
dan jah tahu sebab ape..

"ha ye lah. berape besar nak bukak kelim ni kak nor?"

"bukak abis dari bawah ni sampai ketiak. nanti kite jahit betul2 tepi jahit tepi tu"

"ha ye lah"

dengan taat nye jah pon menyelongkar lah laci jahit mak mereke, carik penetas benang.

dan kaklang maseh menyengih.
thee..thee...theeeee......

TAMMAT

ha. itu karangan 2 tahun lepas.
kalau cikgu bahase melayu aku mase darjah 4 dulu bace sah2 dah layak nak dapat 4 bintang ni.
lepas tu tyg karangan 1 kelas jdi modal berlagak.
darjah 4, tu je lah keje kan..heh

nway,
despite dat unfortunate event (haha),
the pengantin stil manage to pull off the best act and actually look
"supergorgeous" on her BiG day
(can't bliv i actually puji my dearest own sister. ceitt)

hikmah & azman
may 27, '07

nway.
photogs for dat day is our very own sepupu,
firdaus, son of pakteh.
magic hand, i'll say
dats wut he has (yg aku xde)
2 years ago he's an amateur still
(ini aku quot die ok, bkn suke suki label org. hehe)
tapi skrg mmg dah buat BiG move on his career.

do check d web, br je up, quoting him:
"sampai demam2 nak setelkan web ni"
but really worth all d blood and sweats..

cerite kahwin..and cerite2 di sebalik nye
for wutever is worth,
no matter how go00d or how stinx d stories r,
they r wut makes u who u r today.

-fin-
for now =)

- pemanasan badan -

2009-10-07T21:13:00.002+08:00

..when i said "jump"
u said "how high..?"

persoalan yang belum di putus kan lagi: (7/10/09 9:24 pm)

1- bile nak basuh uniform?
2- bile nak sweep floor bilik?
3- bile nak bayar bil maxis? (kan ke tengah o/l ni, p la byr sat..)
4- bile nak call streamyx?
5- bile nak update costing report?
6- bile nak pulang kan payung aci kat atas?
7- bile nak adjust itu baju nikah kamu? (countdown: 80. adui)
8- bile nak bagi jawapan final untuk semua soalan di atas..?

a d u i

saye nak lelap sekejap buleh ka..? body massage kak lia 3 mggu lps dah hilg efek nye (hasil pergelumangan dengan water bath dan pipe water pump yg clog tibe2 secare suke hati)

tapi sbnr nye ade 1 suare deep down yg jwb semua soalan di ats.

"kau.mmg.malasss"

terime saja kah?

a d u i

katak yang dah keluar dari tempurung

2009-09-10T15:43:00.003+08:00

10/9/09

hah!

akhir nye saye sudah ade streamyx.

later ;)

[3 dots in a row]

2009-05-21T00:52:00.003+08:00

it's 1 pass 1 n my eyes are dem widely open. just at d moment wher i dont need them 2b.
d neighbor 4got 2 switch off his backlight. shines thru my room n really doesnt help diz eyes to stay close.

thinkin of actually throwin stones at the lamp. *gile psycho*

.......

mak.

jan 19, 2006. 09:51

"Khamis hari yg baik menuntut segala hajat kpd Allah yg Esa. Banyakkan puji Allah"

--> one of mak's things. daily reminder on wut 2do today. 1st sms thru evry single day.

jan 24, 2006. 11:37

"Usaha dan bertawakkal itu kesukaan Allah, jgn putus asa, usaha dan terus berusaha, dan jalan terus ke depan. Insya Allah kamu pasti berjaya kerana Allah Maha Pemberi kpd semua hamba yg ikhlas dgn-Nya"

--> mak's respon on my msg telling her my 2nd sem result. mintak maaf dkt mak sbb i neaarly score 3.5.

jan 27, 2006. 12:25

"Betul ke ade org nak blk hari ni..?"

--> haha. 1 of my sisters (sape agk nye...?) bocorkan ke mak yg aku nk blk rumah. [standard mode of ahza: bukak sem, register, ambik timetable, ciao..] konon nk buat suprise tibe2 terpacul @ dpn pintu tp dah ade org bgtau mak aku nk blk n mak pon dgn sukehati nye meruinkan kesurprisan yg aku bakal buat. ceittt

march 2, 2006. 13:29

"Ye lah tu! "saya rindu awak" camno?

--> msg yg aku hntr kt mak is "ni hao ma". lps tu mak rply "dah bljr bhs jepon ke?" (mandarin lah mak!) then aku respon n in return get diz msg. heh

stori:
sem 3, ambik mandarin as humanities elective course. buat belagak kat mak boleh la, asyik2 dok ulang ni hao ma/wo ai ni/wo bu zhi tao ni shuo shen me (ayat favorit. credit to leong, he tot me diz. ayt cine plg pnjg aku boleh utter. *ghee*) seriosly fun dat time

march 25, 2006. 07:24

"Mak tak pernah lupa kat anak2. makanan beku pun tinggalkan"

--> x igt ape peristiwa nye. obviously tgh cerite psl mkn lah ni. bende pertame jejak kaki @ rumah after long weeks @ utp is bukak fridge/freezer check laok sdp ape yg mak froze kan utk anakanda2 die d perantauan. (ahza+hikmah @ sri iskandar, muhamad @ parit buntar) ;)

may 22, 2006. 23:13

"Alhamdulillah! anak mak dah pandai masak, nanti balik masakkan untuk mak pulak yo!"

--> another standard mode of ahza: bile buat bende best sikit dgn niat asal kalau mak tau sure kene puji tp mak jaoh dari dpn mate so marilah msg mak sure kene puji jgk ni ki3

may 24, 2006. 22:06

"Hai sayang mak. camno exam. tadi mak call tapi tak jawab pun"

--> apabila mendapat msg ini terus membukak fonbuk dan press 'M' (utk Mak) dan episod >>cotcetcotcet/ngadu/cotcetcotcet/gosip/cotcet/ngadulagi/cotcetcotcet/kenemarahpulak/cotcetcotcet<< pon bermula..

may 31, 2006. 15:24

"Shukran! ajak abang balik. mak rinduuu.... sangat dgn anak2 mak ni"

--> bgtau mak sem dah habis. nak balik rumah cuti pnjg lepakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk

july 30, 2006. 14:25

"ok mak tahu. kamu anak manja mak ayah"

--> haha. stori die buat adik aku skt hati (walaupon die xde d tmpt kejadian. jz plain sakit hati m'byg kan thp mengade aku dlm cerite ni). mak+ayah+akak trn sri iskandar, together with abg frm paritbuntar. lepak @ rumah sewa k'lg @ tmn maju, 2 days 1 night, housem8 die semua blk ke kmpg msg2, n kami insted of blk rmh, rmh yg dtg jengok kami ovr d wiken. seriosly fun! jz imagin kami ber-6 bersetinggan @ rumah bujang, mlm tu bersusun dr hujung dapo ke pintu msk.
cut stori short. mcm mane boleh dpt msg ats tu?
sbb merajuk mak tego my style of driving. akak+ k'lg penambah perase. make saye sulk *bigtime* of wic x lame lagi mak dah nak blk putrajaya dah tu...bile slm dgn mak mak tanye "marah mak ke?".....dan...anthr standard mode of ahza bile mak dah klua ayt mcm tu+bile nak pisah dgn mak blk utp: pelok mak kuat2 kat pinggang, rest my head on her chest n nangesssss. wajib. 2 minits top. sbb mak ckp "dah..dah..nnt tggl bas"

sept 15, 2006. 13:06

"Baik2 Ahza! mak tak nak kamu macam ni lagi. sakit jantong mak"

--> ghee...won't 4get diz moment. hari ahad, happen dat k'lg prolong cuti so have to go bak to sri iskandar alone. bas sri maju @ 1.45 pm, dari putrajaya mmg akn kelua rumah arnd 11.15, ambik erl pkl 11.30 ke bdr tasek selatan, then switch naik star smpi plaza rakyat. akn smpi pudu pkl 1.20~1.25 usually.

but dat day, lambat, 11.30 stil @ rmh lagi! n time tu akak xde @ rumah so good car xde, we left onli with d oldfren+bnyk berjase but not-so-good car yg a/c nye rosak + start jerking btwn gear shifts. mak racing dr prcnt 8 tu hntr aku ke erl. kerete berderum bunyik mcm motobot. and d day was hot! smpi2 erl org jeling je kat kitorang. haha. sian mak. nway. i did manage to catch 11.30 train...mungkin mak dah doa2 ni :)

nov 11, 2006. 14:03

"Mak ni ibu penyayang. mak sentiasa nak anak2nya sihat"

nov 13, 2006. 22:16

"Anak mak memang pandai dlm serba hal but sometimes u are lazy. tahniah tibalah masanya mak nak pencen masak."

--> ghee.. anthr moment of kalau mak tau sure kene puji tp mak jaoh dari dpn mate so marilah msg mak sure kene puji jgk ni :D

march 3, 2007. 12:03

"Dah tengahari. masak ape? mak dah makan sayor 4 mangkok, ratah ikan bawal bakar 3 suku ekor. Alhamdulillah! semenjak makan gamogen selera mak meningkat"

--> hari2 cek on mak makan ape. mak start losing appetite n start losing weight

march 6, 2007. 17:56

"Alhamdulillah! sehat orang sakit macam mak ni susah nak jangka. yang pasti mak dah nak makan. kamu balik tengok mak tembam. camne exam? mak harap kamu buat sunggoh2.."

june 5, 2007. 12:37

"Camne? mak sertakan nasi lauk sikit, nanti makan ye.. kalau rase banyak ajak lah kawan"

--> mixday. starts with heppiness, ends with us @ putrajaya hospital. rcv diz msg on my 2nd day praktikal @ p2. pagi2 dah siap packing trolley bag filled with baju+ n wutnot stuff 4 my stay in d hostel. 6 a.m, ayah hntr ke komuter serdang, i pushed off on d 1st komuter frm s'bn heading rawang. +- 1 hour travel. @ rwg, abg lil pik me up n sent me to p2. waktu lunch ayh dtg, meet ayh @ koporate building, ayah pass d trolley beg+lunch box dr mak. 2 laok; both chicken. 1 masak asam pedas, 1 lagi masak lemak. "collision of both worlds". sgt bnyk!~ mmg standard mkn 1 famili kami. so aku heret trolley msk gim, then lunch dgn kakak2 tea lady @ koporate.nice peeps :)

july 15, 2007. 19:29

"Cuba lagi untuk sem depan. syaratnya kamu mesti berusaha sunggoh dapatkan markah tertinggi dlm latehan kerja skrg. buat kerja sungguh krn Allah. Allah akan bantu kiranya kamu ikhlas dgn-Nya. mak kan tetap berdoa buatmu. itulah saja senjata yg mak ada untuk bantu kamu. "

--> lps ngadu @ mak on my 5th sem result. d beginning moment of my flunkiness. mak +ve je suruh usaha lebih lagi. did skor on d internship. boost CG a lot

july 23, 2007. 07:34

"Shukran. semoga Allah yang Maha Penyayang sayang denganmu juga. Insya Allah"

--> msg dr ahza: "mak. saye syg mak"

july 25, 2007. 12:47

"detik 9.35 mlm jumaat mak lahirkan kamu. satu anugerah Allah buat mak dan ayah 22 tahun yg lepas. mak harap di usia ini kamu dah buat persediaan jadi insan soleh untuk hidup mendatang dunia akhirat"

--> selalunye mak mmg x wish awl, sbb mak ckp "awak lahir mlm, mak wish mlm lah". but diz yr, her health starts breaking dwn, waktu siang mak ok sikit, start mgrb sakit akan attack dgn teruk. so i bliv dats d reason diz yr mak x wish mlm, sbb mak tau ade posibiliti mak lupe/too weak to type d msg 4 me.

diz is d last birthday wish frm her

july 30, 2007. 10:10

"Mak tunggu msg kamu"

--> promised mak i'll text her evry morning. i missed dat morning n i rcv diz

aug 1, 2007. 15:39

"training tu mengajar kamu. jgnlah bosan ye"

--> hah. ngadu bosan @ opis lah ni

aug 5, 2007. 20:28

"Mak tak pernah meyimpan kesilapan anak mak di hati, sebab tu sentiasa nasehat dan tegor"

--> yes mam, i bliv u, n dats exactly wut u did. kalau mak senyap sgt lah bahaye. bile mak dah xnk ckp itu crucial. meaning, mak mmg terase hati. n ther r plenty of moments i'm d cause of mak's silence. plenty.

3 am

tik..tik..tik..

feb 25, 2006. 07:06

"Dah solat? muharam dah hujung nak timbul safar. muhasabah diri. mak tak lama akan tinggalkan kamu semua, banyak dah pesanan mak, ambik lah ingatan. mak takde hartabenda pun. pada kamu semua mak nak tumpang hingga akhirat nanti"

.......

to think i mite not see those eyes
it makes me so hard not to cry
and as we said our last goodbye
i nearly do....

beloved wife, mother, friend

Jall likes to play ball in the hell...

2009-05-08T11:33:00.007+08:00

Venue:
Lastnite's tutorial, 2000 hr-2200 hr

Event:
Azlan was reading the story of "Jall the Tall Boy"

Objective:
To familiarize the students to the pronunciation of the words ending with "all"

Note:
The way to pronounce "all" is quite the same with the malay pronunciation of "ol".
e.g. sekolah

Cronology:
(Voice over: Teacher Nurul)

--start of event--

page 1: Title - Jall, the Tall Boy [pronounciation check: Jall (/) tall (/).] - Good start

page 2: Jall is a tall boy [pronounciation check: Jall (/) tall (/)] - Orite. He gets the idea now.

page 3: He likes to play ball [pronounciation check: ball (/)] - Doesn't seem so hard, rite Azlan? ok continue...

page 4: Jall likes to shop in the mall too [pronounciation check: Jall (/) mall (/)] - Orite. go on..

page 5: Jall also likes to play ball in the hell

.....

sub event:-

Teacher Nurul menundukkan kepale dan melepaskan gelak yg x tertahan. tindakan reflex, totally. dlm kepale mengimaginkan Jall playing ball in the hell ....

flaming ball picture: courtesy of wikipedia

suare dari blkg: teacher, kenape teacher gelak? (Nidal)

Teacher Nurul agkt muke n tgk Azlan terpisat-pisat kompiuss..

Teacher Nurul: Azlan, how to pronounce this? (pointed at the word mall)

Azlan: mall (as in mol)

Teacher Nurul: Orite good. if u pronounce this as mall, then how would u pronounce this? (pointed at the word hall)

Azlan: (pondering......) aaa... h a l l ? (as in hol)

Teacher Nurul: yess... hall. not hell orite.....?

Azlan: (nod+tersengeh sengeh)

--end of event--

thru out d next 45 minutes diz line keeps playin' in Teacher Nurul's head:

Jall likes to play ball in the hell ...

untitled

2009-04-22T23:44:00.005+08:00

just feel like showing diz.
caption on d shirt: has nothin' 2do with anythin :)

her name is umairah

2009-04-20T20:41:00.005+08:00

she's in the saturday's class.
cute girl, chinese-look, soft spoken (so soft i barely hear words she said). has 2 ugly-yet-kiut gigi kapak n dats d 1st thing dat i notice when she opened her mouth. nice girl, very nice. d kind dat u'll like d 1st time u lay eyes on her.

nway..

despite all d kiutness, she's a little bit of a daydreamer, tulis lambat, lambat pikap, pasif so as to say. one second u pull your attention away from her and off she goes to her lalaland..n u have to ketuk kuat sikit in order to get her back on her 2 feet n continue wher she'd stop.
so, since day 1 i am being a little pushy on her, extra attention on her as compared to d others, n have to always double triple check on her

"umairah, r u orite?"

"umairah, did u write down d definitions?"

"umairah did you hear what your friends say?"

and on and on...

but d kiutness still ther, no matter how garang teacher turns out to be.
still, at the end of d class, take my hand n kiss it n tell me 1 or 2 of her little world stories.

"teacher, hari ni kan, umairah dgn umi nak pegi swimming pool..dkt precint 16. teacher xnk pegi ke?"

"teacher, lastweek ade sportsday dekat sekolah sbb tu umairah xdtg tutorial"

"teacher, haritu pegi sekolah baba ade hari keluarge"

and lastweek, i promise to God had i known d truth i won't be dat hard on her. turns out all diz time i thot she is 10 years old. so i always compared her with her friends her age.

lastwik, as usual, i assigned d students with a number of new words n they have to look up for d definitions in dictionary. it's a good train for them 2b acquainted with the dictionary n d right way to use it. n to my suprise after 10 minutes, most of d students had finished at least 60% of d assigned words, but umairah hasn't found 1!

dat was my 1st day handling a 2-group session, d seniors and d newcomers so i'm putting in double efforts to cover both groups' syllabus. so when i saw dat umairah hasn't yet found definitions for any of d assigned words,

...............................................................................................................................................................

humph!

cut d story short, i asked ashran, a 7-year old newcomer to look up d word 'wok' that umairah was looking for(wic she spent more than 10 minutes lookin' 4 it), and within seconds ashran managed to find it.

i said to umairah "ashran pon boleh jumpe, die darjah 1, umairah darjah berape?"

"umairah darjah 2"

momentarily halt.

"umairah darjah berape?"

"darjah 2"

monolog: darjah 2? bukan darjah 4 ke? jap3..umairah....darjah 2...?

ya Allah....

with dat heavy-with-guilt heart, i let d monolog goes n showed her d step by step process on how to look up words in dictionary and even write down the sequence abc till z on d paper to ease d look-up process. (evrytime i ask her if diz letter comes b4/after dat letter she'll softly reads abc sampai z then onli she can answer. pity innocent little girl)

stil monolog running: umairah darjah 2...ya Allah. i m being very hard on her all diz time

n @ d end of d class, i hug her, n apologize..

n giv her extra homework (still) n pesan to tell her umi she has homework 2b submit nextwik n ask her 2 ask 4 her umi's assistance

still with d kiutness, she took my hand, n kiss it. n she left.

i hope i get d chance to c her next wiken.

tibe2 dari arah belakang:

"teacher, teacher, macam mane nak buat gaye dragon?"

not 2b continued with dat stori. intentionally left hang ther. haha.
1 thing 4 sure, dat question caused me a 30-minutes silent treatment from the person. aisshhhh...

Update

dis is the Umairah.. =)

when one deal's closed

2009-04-14T20:50:00.002+08:00

well, one & amat if you guys read diz, i'm not talkin' bout work. aku x berjaya lagi close deal...still lots of kekencingan need 2do to tackle 1. i'm talkin' bout diz deal dat i have kept aside a looooong time ago and i just put a close on it yesterday, sealed it in a box tightly with dat brown tape and tossed it somewher i bliv i won't found it again and ever get the feelin' to open it again.it does feels gOOd, very gOOd...

and to the person who concerns very much y i ever need to close this deal, and why is it so important 2 me dat i did so,

thank you for your understandin' n i feel so lucky dat chemistry can't find a place to settle between me n d package in d already-sealed-and-tossed box, dat i get the chance to receive another box and had fun along the time seekin' chemistry with wuts inside...

je t'aime encore :)

momentarily halt

2009-04-02T18:30:00.005+08:00

..except for the fact yg die x sunat n he's not my brother in islam....

je l'adore..... beaucoup =)

pitstop

2009-03-31T18:25:00.002+08:00

think diz over:
"comparisons are easilly done once you've had a taste of perfection"

hurm..
in my current state, i can't but agree

HEPA FILTER

2009-03-24T18:00:00.003+08:00

it is a kind of filter that can filter up to 99.97% of airborne particles 0.3 micrometers in diameter. 0.3 micro, u can't even see the dust with your naked eyes...hebat kan? common application: production line/shop that's dust sensitive, like paint shop of automobile, testing line for electronics part..etc. good thing about this thing is that it does not requires maintenance. once the lifespan is over, the old one got thrown out and the new one will be installed.

-the class for today. big boss in town. supergeniusss!

temperature rising..?

2009-03-17T13:46:00.004+08:00

List of sakit hati for today:

1- PIC Pet yg x dpt d hubungi for more than a week now. apekah status hamba..?

2- Got a fon call from Comfori regarding job opp but in the middle of the conversation, thanx to the ever-so-condemning poorly covered coverage maxis di bangunan bertuah ini the conversation was being interrupted (atau kata lain line putusss...) and thanx for my highly undoubtedly genius kepale otak i did not asked for the caller's name (peringatan untuk di kongsi bersama: bila ada call masuk, lebih2 lagi kalau call untuk offer kerja/duit/makan free/kereta free etc. free silalah bertanye who's on the line plz..........) i can't trace back who the person is. Nway, when i dial the general line turns out the receptionist of the company is so-lah-kampung that she addressed me with 'hey'. (Comfori bkn kah intn'l company..?)

3- not yet. hah.

ya Allah, semoga item2 seterusnya yg bakal berlaku adalah yang terbaik darimu untuk ku..thanks for the hardship that i learn to be more patient..and understanding (pemikiran pelangi. fikir yg. chantek chantek and baek baek belake)

postmortem

2009-03-11T18:40:00.003+08:00

what does it means if your quote is 5 times higher than the lowest bidder?

not doing enuff ground work? guess so..

aRi: saya budak baru belajar ape yg salah tlg lah ajo ...

those were the times..

2009-03-10T17:46:00.003+08:00

1993;SK Jln Bellamy, KL

monolog:
kuetiao lagi..? nape die asyik belikan kuetiao aje..? die x tau ke aku x mqn bendalah ni..?

and instead of saying "no" to my k'lg i push myself to swallow those bendalah. dat time kuetiao semangkuk 40 sen aje. and dat is my lunch. every single school day. 5 days a week. k'lg was a prefect back then so she went out 4 recess 10 minutes early. she never asked me what i want to have for lunch. more or less she dictated my lunch for 3 whole str8 years..so for 3 whole str8 years i was brought up with the food that i hate.the most.

who knows that 10 years after that the only order that i keep on ordering is "kuetiao kungfu satu boss!"

when i think i should think

2009-03-06T14:05:00.000+08:00

To start something that you think is hard, is hard. Like your very first time behind the wheel of a manual transmission car, you don't pass the 1st gear in the 1st trial. But when the car begins to move and the rpm is risin' and the engine is ready to work on higher gear, the car starts to move smoother and faster. And that is when you wonder why previously you say this thing is so..dem..hard..

my pilot post-20 minutes of thinking to get to the end of the 79th word *hard?*